Sarah Noodles

21. Chicago. I does what I does, and I says what I says.
So I’ve had this pack of Keebler Fudge Stripe cookies I’ve been working on in my room for a couple weeks now (trigger warning). And I’ve had this one sleeve left for the past couple days. That’s like….5 cookies, ok? Stay with me now. For some reason, once I get really close to finishing something, I suddenly lose interest/get lazy/or simply stop for a reason that is unbeknownst to all logic. Honestly, this has happened multiple times. With books. TV series I decide to watch all the way through. And coincidentally, cookies. And it’s not because I’m not into it! I don’t know if I subconsciously don’t want whatever it is I’m not finishing to end or what. But this is a very real pattern I have noticed in myself. Let’s cut to 15 minutes ago. I have a case of the super-insomnia-fun-times/not that I haven’t had in a really long time tonight. No matter what I do, I cannot fall asleep. So here I am. Five in the morning. I scan my room and I eye the Keebler packaging. I suddenly think of my bad habit of not finishing things, and how it’s happening again….with these cookies. Freaking cookies. I get annoyed with myself and decide if I don’t do it now, I may never do it. So I eat them. I’m shoving the remainder of my Fudge Stripes down my throat at 5am for the pure sake of finishing them. I don’t even want them. If that’s not a fatty move, I don’t know what is.

So I’ve had this pack of Keebler Fudge Stripe cookies I’ve been working on in my room for a couple weeks now (trigger warning). And I’ve had this one sleeve left for the past couple days. That’s like….5 cookies, ok? Stay with me now.

For some reason, once I get really close to finishing something, I suddenly lose interest/get lazy/or simply stop for a reason that is unbeknownst to all logic. Honestly, this has happened multiple times. With books. TV series I decide to watch all the way through. And coincidentally, cookies. And it’s not because I’m not into it! I don’t know if I subconsciously don’t want whatever it is I’m not finishing to end or what. But this is a very real pattern I have noticed in myself.

Let’s cut to 15 minutes ago. I have a case of the super-insomnia-fun-times/not that I haven’t had in a really long time tonight. No matter what I do, I cannot fall asleep. So here I am. Five in the morning. I scan my room and I eye the Keebler packaging. I suddenly think of my bad habit of not finishing things, and how it’s happening again….with these cookies. Freaking cookies. I get annoyed with myself and decide if I don’t do it now, I may never do it. So I eat them. I’m shoving the remainder of my Fudge Stripes down my throat at 5am for the pure sake of finishing them. I don’t even want them.

If that’s not a fatty move, I don’t know what is.

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